I have always been fascinated by people who have a way with words. I am however, not one of them. I am not a writer. In fact, I can't write worth shit, but I do have thoughts. Thoughts that drive me to the edge of insanity if kept inside.
Some of this may make no sense to anybody, but it's therapeutic for me in a way.
When I am alone, my head tends to go on overdrive. I think a lot. Most of the time, the thoughts are very pessimistic. I start to think of the future. It is hard for me to say to myself, "just calm down, everything will work out". I start thinking of the worst possible thing that could happen to me, and dwell on it.
The thing I fear the most is loneliness. I dread the thought of being alone the rest of my life. That may be one reason why I put my whole heart into things.
Most of the time though, it seems to work against me.
The best feeling in the world for me is being around someone you know accepts you for everything you are. Someone you can be yourself around, and not be embarrassed, or feel you have to put on a show. That's what I strive for. For me that is the definition of happiness. When you have that, everything else seems to fall into place. If I was ever to be upset, I know that I could go to that person for strength and reassurance.
Patience is a virtue. Good things come to those who wait. Blah, blah, blah...
I don't want to wait to be happy. I want to wake up every morning content with life. I feel that I wouldn't be living my life to the fullest if I wasn't.
"I gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And I hope you find the missing piece,
to bring you back to me." - Adele
belle vie xox
PS- Why does Adele know the perfect thing to say all the time?!
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